i miss you so much and it sucks because i have nobody i can talk to about you i used to wish that i never met fernando because of what he did to me but when i think about it im actually lucky because i got to meet you and all of your family and friends i thought i was never going to see your brother or your mother again but i do and im so glad i think about you everyday i always see something or hear something that reminds me of you i have so many memories that i think back on and im so glad i got to chill with you like i did when i think of all that happened its so over whelming and it makes me feel sick i dont wanna believe that your gone and it still seems so fake like your just on vacation or something kind of like some of the people i had on your myspace but there gone now whenever i look at your myspace i feel so special because im second and im next to fernando your number one on my top and your always gonna be there ill never move you lol i could keep going and going let me stop lol i really miss you so0o0o0o much your such a great guy and ill never forget about you

xoxo

marissa

as time goes by and it i know the date you passed away gets closer it gets me thinking about you more and more. i just wonder why you. so young and such a great person. i wish that never happened to you cause all the pain off losing you is still in your loved ones. i hope that your watching over them up from heaven. giving them guidence. take great care of your family danny. your parents are wonderful people and your brother needs your guidence. carolina i know loves you so much too because i've seen her cry about you before and she's such a happy person other times. i know we all remember you. i wish i could still write on your myspace page but i got deleted so i can just write to you on here. i bought you a star too. its comming in the mail but its taking so long to come. now when i look up in the sky you will have a star shinning for you. i can smile at night when i go to sleep because i know your there. you always were and always will be. your never forgotten danny. te quiero mucho!

 Dear Danny, last week you would have been celebrating your 22nd birthday. everytime i go to the cematary i think of your funeral and wake. there were so many people there who love you. on your birthday and november 6th people still visit you. you were someone special. someone worth remembering. there aren't many people like you in the world. i remember asking friends who have known you in the past about you, they said you were the type of person who would give them your shirt on your back just to keep them warm. your friend stephanie said that you were so funny. you jumped in a pool with your clothes still on. and i was with my sister in our car in the Davies parking lot and you and fernando were in your crx, you pulled out in front of us to cut us off. chrystal and i laughed. i saw your smile too. you liked my best friend cristina too, she used to tell me when you went up to her locker to talk to her. she is amazing just like you. if there is one thing i dont understand about God taking you is that you are a good person! there are so many criminals in the world that he could have taaken that night. but he had to take a great person. i don't understand. but someday maybe i will, God must have a good reason. your family is great just like you. i love your mom, she misses you so much. i'm so glad that she made this page. i write to you all the time on the memorial myspace page that marissa made. but it's not as good as talking to you in person. i wish you were here to see us all again. fernando has new tattoo's, your dad is in colombia, all your friends are still working and doing good. joe and chris have a motorcycle now. i have one too. i'm studying to be a nurse. i wish i could have helped you. it makes me so sad to know that your not going to be here anymore. i don't even like thinking of it. i dreamt of you too. it was amazing, i will never forget the good dreams. when you graduated i was standing right there near the stage. i saw your smile, you looked so handsome. i always want to remember you with a smile on your face. you truely were... ARE someone special. te amo con todo mi corazon. until we meet in heaven.

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My dear son, today, February 27, 2009 you would be 22 years old, I can't imagine you growing older, because you are in my mind frozen at the age 18 and that's the image that will be with me for ever.

I always though that you were going to be with us, growing older, getting married and having kids, the grandkids that I'll never have because God have other plans for you, He wanted you to be with Him as an angel, our angel.

In did I know that you are in heaven because you were a great person, always helping others, making them laugh and always traing to do de best that you could do. You were a wonderful big brother to Fernando, the best friend   any one could ever have and for me you were the son that every mother wish for, needless to say  I still have Fernando, whose my other amazing son, who I love as much as I love you.

Today,  we will go to church on your memory, and after church we will go to Carolina's house, She asked us to joing them for dinner.

Danny you will be in our heart for ever. love, mommi.

One more year goes by and I'm here, watching the snow fall and thinking about you, going through all those beatiful reminiscences.

18 years full of precious memories, since the day you were born until the day you left as an angel, our angel, who's watching us from heaven. Every little detail of those 18 wonderful years still vivid in my mind as if it happened yesterday. the day you came into my life was the happiest day of my life.

I remember your first Christmas, all my family together, therewere so many toys that you didn't know which one to pick up to play with, oh on your first bithday you looked hansome with the outfit that I picked up for you for this special day, of the toys you recieved, your favorite was a drum set

                                                           one of the best memories was when you saw for the first time your little brother, Fernando, you were so happy, you wanted to touch him, huge him, kiss him, any way you didn't know what to do with him, since then and as you grew up, you became best friends, and were inseparable.

 I remember your first school day, you didn't wanted to stay, but we talked to you until you decided to stay. On your 5th birthday you got your first bicycle, it was easy for you learn how to ride it.

I'll never forget the day you recieve your driver lisence, you were very happy and couldn't wait to drive our car back home and from that day on, you became our driver, taking us everywere we wanted to go.

I have 18 years full of awesome memories, memories that will stay with me until the day I die.

The Holidays are getting closer, is hard for me to think about these days with out you, but I'm trying to do my best and go ahead with my llife.

I asked God to give me wisdom to become aware of the differences between now and before, as a mother, and yes I have noticed some diferences, I've been an awful mother to Fernandoand I feel guilty, I wish I could go back a few years and change a lot of things that I've done wrong.

By now on, I'm going to try to be the mother that Fernando needs and think more abut him and the erroneous things that I did and correct them, because I know you are in a much better place, you are our Angel always watching us from up above, but Fernando is still here and he needs me to be here with him helping him and be a mother to him, the mother that I was when you were here.

I miss you and love you like always.

i cant believe three years have went by. i dont know how or why this could have happened to someone as good as you are. i never kenw you in person but everything i have heard about you was great. no one can say a bad thing about you, you were raised to be a very respectful man and very caring. someone told me that you were the kind of kid that would give the shirt off his back if a friend needed it. i wish you were still here to be my friend. i wish you were still here for your mom and dad too. they miss you so much. i could not imagine what they went through that night. i do know that they are very strong because they still get up and go through the day with a smile on their face. probably because they know you are looking over their shoulder. i miss seeing you around because eveytime i saw you, you had a smile on your face. and i thought you were really funny. i thought you looked really handsome at the sophmore semi dance. i was at that dance too. i just wish u were here for more things. i wish u can see all your family. and see hoow much william has grown, and how much johnathan has grown too. i'll never forget when william asked fernando " where is danny?". we were speachless because we didnt know what to tell him. we didnt know how to explain that you were gone. the look on your brothers face. we asked william "where do you think he is?" he didnt know. i think it is hard because he was so little, but he remembers you. and he loved you too. like so many people still do. they keep you alive by talking and thinking about you. we miss you, someday we will see you in heaven. te amo

Today, November 6 2008, is the third anniversary of your departure, it's been very hard for me, even though, I know you are in a much better place enjoying Eternal Life next to God, I'm happy for you, but this doesn't take my pain away.

I'm still missing you, I keep thinking that you are away with your friends  and that at any momment I'm going to see you enter through the door, I know this is a dream that never will come true.

I thank God for the strength He is giving me, I recognize that I have to help Him with this task other wise He wouldn't be able to hel me and bilieve me, I'm doing my best, although there are some times I feel that I can't do it any more.

I'm getting a lot of support from my family, I hope with their support and a lot of patience, I'm going through this hard time, I know my life isn't going to be the same, but with their help my life can be a little better.

Our Angel Danny,
How fast have the three years without you just flown by! It seems not to be real, that you've been an Angel so long, and although I know we all wish you were here with us, like you were three years ago, I thank you for being our Angel.

It is impossible to say that those you love you can ever get over the pain of loss, and the emptiness left by your absence. I don't think anyone can say they feel ok knowing you are gone. But I do believe you were called to Heaven because that is where you needed to be. I do believe God has a reason for this. I do believe you are watching and guiding over us as our Angel. I do believe that as much pain as it caused to see you go, if God is giving us the health to live, we MUST accept that as a PRECIOUS GIFT. Because that is what life is, a GIFT from God. And when God decides we are ready to join you, that is when we will be reunited. When God feels the time is right, not when we want to.

It is hard to take that truth and accept it, but I pray that you, our Angel, can make those who are so blind by the emotion of your loss, see and accept this truth. I can imagine how sad it is to see us here, crying, and feeling pain, but for that reason I pray that God comfort those who need you most. Those who do not see the truth. Those who do not want to accept the truth. Those who are not accepting the precious gift of life.

I thank you and God for giving me the understanding to accept this truth. For blessing all those in our family with life, and health. For guiding us, and watching over us.

I love you Danny, and miss you so very much.

PS - William remembers you and misses you too.  I know you've come to see him in his dreams, and I thank you for that too!

I ask God to give me strength, during this difficult times because as time goes by I miss you more and more, I tough it would be the opposit, that the pain would be less. Is really very hard for me to go ahead with my life with out you, I know for fact, that I have to do it because Fernando still here and I know that he needs me to be here, on earth, with him.

I think that I'm the mother  I was when you were here, but people tell me that I'm not the same. I try to be the mother people knew, I try to please Fernando the way I did it for both of you. I talk to him as i did it before, I always say "I love you" when he leaves and comes back home or when I talk to him over the phone, I try not to go to your web page when he is home, I huge him, I kiss him. Any way I assume that I"m doing a very good job, I don't see any distinction, even though people tell me they see disparity.

Please God, give me wisdom to see the difference Between now and before, then give the strength that I need to change, because I want to be the mother-friend Fernando wants. 

October 18, 10:30 pm. The third annyversary is getting near.

It's been three years but I feel like not a day has passed, it hurts the same way it did the momment I realized you were gone.  Seems like yesterday, I'm still living every second, every little detail I lived that fateful night.

It was midnight, daddy and I were sleeping when we suddenly woke up, we gat out of bed and went to your bedroom, you weren't threre, daddy told me "it's midnight and he hasn't come yet, should we call him?" I told him "lets wait a little more, then we went back to bed.

"this ist's been the happiest night in my life" you told your friends on your way home, then you went through all the events that made you so happy that evening. According to the police report the accident accured at 12:30 am.

We were already worried, I didn't know how much timewent by when we heard a knock on the door.  "Who is this" I asked, "it's me Jhon", our first floor neigbor; I openned the door and there there were they: Jhon and a police oficer.  I inmediatlly knew that something was wrrong, all kind of thoughs went through my mind, every thing, but the horrible true. Jhon told me "get dress we are going to the hospital, Danny is there".

We got ready and Jhon took us to the hospital, not a word during the trip, when we got there someone lead us to a room, inside the room I saw some nurses, a doctor and a priest. They told me "we did every thing we could do"  they keep talking and trying to explain in every possible way that you were dead but with out saying that dreadful word, DEATH, it was like they were talking in another language unknown to me because I didn't understand what they were trying to tell me. I know that every human being is meant to died but not you, not my son, he is special, he is unique, he doesn't died, or at least thats what I though.

Jhon had to tell me "Rosita he is dead, I just didn't want to take it, it was to big fro me to comprehend.  I didn't believe it not even when I saw you laying down there, I though you were sleeping, "Danny wake up, please, wake up, it seemed like a eternity but I finally understood that you were not going to wake up. Then I lost it.

Today three years later I still ask my family for things that happened but I don't remember, after I finally accepted that you were gone.  Danny I miss you so much, I can't wait until God takes me to where you are and be with you again, see you when God decides its my time.  Love Mommi.

RIP Daniel A Jaramillo

Its been two years without you

its been two years without you
im sitting here alone
wondering what would of happened
if you never gone

if you never got in that car
if you just sat home that night
the knocking on the door
it gave us so much fright
your brother dropped to the floor
tears pooring down his cheek
your family came in a hurry
hoping you were alright
your mother screaming crying
please dont leave me tonight

its been two years without you
im sitting here alone
wondering what would of happend
if you never gone

you mean so much to me
even though your gone
i think about you everyday
you make me stronger in some way

i cant explain it
but i feel it in my heart
your always here with me
and thats what i beileve

its been two years without you
im sitting here alone
wondering what would of happened
if you never gone ;(



your here with me always danny i will never forget about you i may not have money to buy you flowers or a card but i really do care about you and i promise i will always be here for you every november 6th and every feb 27 th untill i cant walk no more or get real sick i will be here even the rain couldnt stop me from taking the bus here!!



x0x0

marissa